well i'm getting my trip to orlando, but not the way i would of chosen. my cousin lost her 18 yr old daughter last night. this is her second daughter to bury, they were both born with the same screwed up gene. so i'm going to fly down with my grandmother so she won't be alone.
please pray for my family.

Aren't we just so proud of how our war vets are treated:: she says with a sneer.
Word is that many of the returning injured vets are being billed and even turned over to collection agencies from bills, by guess who, naw really take a guess. THE GOVERNMENT!
I understand that it's mostly bookkeeping mistakes but please.
it makes me ashamed and angry. One of the men had been billed for $2000.00 and threatened with collections, I think it was for receiving combat pay while he was learning to walk on his new prosthetic leg the other had been severely wounded and was being billed for his sign on bonus for not fulfilling his contract. The news highlighted two men with different stories so I may be getting them mixed up. sorry that's just me "mixed up". But the gist of the story is correct.

let's put this into perspective. Somebody somewhere is billing this man for $2000.00 and our President is preparing for some kind of summit (sorry, again, my ignorance is showing here) somewhere and they will be paying $3700.00 a night for a slew of suites per suite per night.

now whether your pro or con Bush and/or Iraq you've got to admit somethings wrong with this picture!!

well once again i thank you, (if there is a you) for listening to me rant.

until next time God Bless!

today i'm dreaming of laying around coco beach witha big ooo margarita with my big ooo white butt hanging out. no phones, no empty ck book, no bitching!
just me the waves and my friend margarita.
oh well. work waits for no man HUH?

hallo everyone.
WOW some crazy crap in the news huh?
last night i heard that Massachusetts is trying for a new state health plan where everyone will be covered. in theory a great idea. but for me and mr. c it was down right frightening. they said that small business' that don't offer health insurance will have to pay $ 300.00 per employee into a state health pool. now i have to do a little research since they never said if this was monthly, qtrly, or annually, but with the ins. shoppping i've been doing i guess it's monthly. for us that would be $1200.00 a month!!!! $14,000.00 a year.
i'm dead serious when i say we would have to lay some people off. can someone explain to me how this would help anything?
i do agree that something has to give in our health system. it's broken and desperately needs to be fixed, but is this really the way to acheive that? i've said many times and say again it feels like state and federal government does not want small business to prosper. heck sometimes it seems like they don't want us to make it from month to month!
i would really love to hear from other business owners out there.
thanks and god bless

arkansas love/hate chpt 2

early feb. the temp was highs in the 80's one day the thermometer on the porch said 91. late feb we have sleet and snow and the the next week we're back up to 70's and 80's. now it's the end of march and the avg. temp the past two weeks (highs) has been 55. NOWONDER i have sinus headaches.

latest on lonoke, more charges pending, more people arrested and i heard on the radio that it was in the national inq. remember at the same time this broke out there was a scandal in a northwest county along the same lines.

earlier this week i read about helena/west helena now has their own little thing going on. the two city govt. are merging, or something like that, and a lot of people will be out of a job, so in one fell swoop several VIP's:shesayswithasneer, voted themselves raises and bonus'. WOW wouldn't you like to have that job.

i've lived here in pine bluff for 11 years and there has been one crisis and scandal after another with the city govt. but since we live outside the city limits i've never been able to try vote the fools and or jerks out! very frustrating.

anyway i was wondering, if anybody reads this, what state are you in? do your city governments have the same shenanigans going on? i would love to hear about it.

ok that's the end of my ramblings for now. God Bless All! even those in the city govt. ;-)

Everywhere there are saint patrick day things going on. to me it's a depressing day. it's the day my daughter was born and died. she would be 25 today. i dream sometimes of what she would look like or what type of person she would be. you would think after so many years the pain would be less, but it's not. and it's not a pain you can share with anyone. there is nobody that can share your pain. nobody else carried her for 8 mnths and talked with her, read and sang to her and grew to love her even before meeting her even before you knew she was a she. then the worst of all not getting to hold her, count her toes and fingers and feel her wiggle in your arms.

sorry folks (if there is anyone that reads my crap) the past two entries have been really whiney and "oh poor me". this is not the type of person i usually am and i'll get back to normal soon.

then maybe i'll have some interesting topics to write about.

ok i'm fixing to really bitch about something personal.
you know you can take care of somebody you love with out expecting anything anything in return. and you should. but why is when your sick they completely ignore you. no do you need anything can i help? NOTHING. i'm soo pisse doff and really really hurting on top of having the flu or what ever the hell this is.
i just had to right this down somewhere before i explode and say things to people that i love, no matter how much they hurt me, that i'll regret later.
if i live through this (and right now death just doesn't sound to bad ;-) )
i'll be back on to talk to more important things.

I had a much needed minivacation last week in Memphis with my mom and sister. I wanted to REALLY try out my car but it was bad weather all the way so I decided against that. I enjoyed so much just sitting around and visiting and reading and sometimes just nothing. Everybody needs that sometimes.

Now, like the rest of the country I've been listening about the nation's port uproar. I've tried to listen and understand both pro and con. Listening has been easier than understanding for me, as usual, but in all honestly it scares the crap out of me. Now if that is racist, like I heard one opinion say, so be it. I read an article that brought out a good point in my opinion. Apparently around '62 Kruschev said that our country could and would be taken down from within. The article also went on to point out other uproars within our social structure and government at this time and darn if I can remember a one of them right now, but if you listen to the national news each day you begin to wonder if that isn't were we are headed.

I also heard another thing though that gives you hope for our country. On NPR they do a spot called "this I believe". It can be about anything. Yesterday there was one done by a young man, I would guess about 17 or 18. He spoke of what his parents and grandparents had seen and lived through, and yet, though they didn't know it at the time the bad times (war, killer flu, great depression, war and war etc...) did eventually end and things did get better. His essay was realistic and also optimistic about the future in general for himself and his country.

where I'm going with this is: during, let's say WWII, the men and women that lived throughout that time probably did not realize the significance of their generation. That they would go on to change the country in every conceivable way, yet they did. Only after several generations did it become apparent, so while things do scare the crap out of me at times there is a spot in my heart and mind that hopes, prays and on somedays believes that is what we are going through at this time.

this weekend we really got a lot of sleet and ice, but we didn't have to eat our own feet or anything. bored. bored. it did do number on my back.
oh yeah have i said i liked chickens? well i'm rethinking that position after chasing, feeding watering etc.... in twenty degree weather and a wind that'll blow the humor out of you. ;-)

it's amazing. the weather folks start
whispering about snow and everybody
goes nuts! you would expect to hear
"Donner" type stories the next day, but
all we get is some ice spitting.
this was fri the 10th